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This is why the book Flow needs to be burned.
I'm going to let you in on a little secret - those periods where you are mindful and engaged? You are actually moving faster than you think. Possibly faster than you are when you feel that you are moving at a quicker clip. When the mind moves slowly, it begins to see additional details. Instead of your consciousness being smeared across a series of moments in an intoxicating blur of dopamine, now you are in particle after particle attention. Persist long enough and you will even begin to see space between these very particles. This can be very boring at first. It's also uncomfortable. But it is a gateway into your bigger mind.
There is a koan that asks why do you put on your seven piece robe at the sound of the bell? I'm more inclined to ask you what is it like to put on that robe? Where, then, is your mind as you carefully pull on your rakusu?
But there's a danger here. The Zen patriarchs warn us to "live neither in the entanglement of outer things nor in inner feelings of emptiness". While there is a danger of moving too fast and being dashed on the outer world, there is an equal danger of moving into pure quietism. Those inner feelings of calm and collectedness are important, but they are not the whole story. Speed and slowness are really no different. When the barriers between subject and object begin to dissolve, you will arrive at a place that knows neither fast nor slow.
But for now, take it one moment at a time.