Vacillating passion for Christ

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This seems more to refer to the phenomena which Paul recounts when he says, 'I die daily'; in short, one may wake up in the morning with hope that he will walk according to the ways of God, but in the evening find that he hasn't. This is not bipolar; it is realistic and one of the reasons each person can say with certainty, 'I am the chief of all sinners'.

In his novel Till We Have Faces, Lewis has a good recounting of this phenomena - of waking up trying to do and be good, and finding it impossible by the end of the day.

One thing to consider is this: One's relationship with God is not a matter of feelings of peace or good intentions; it is to walk the path of Christ himself which is a path of suffering (consider the Beatitudes.) Thus why Paul says, "I die daily."

According to modern psychological practice and tradiiton, a spiritually healthy person may seem deranged simply because they are not trying to feel good; they are trying to be good. And that involves a lifelong path of, as far as any man may know for himself, feeling bad. There are plenty of NT quotes from even the Lord himself to support this. And this is precisely why, as far as I can tell, the actual peace surpasses understanding.

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Not sure about the bipolar condition specifically, but there is an interesting Biblical story very similar to what you describe in the life of Elijah.

In 1 Kings 18, he wins a powerful victory over the Baal prophets, with clear Divine intervention. However, in the very next chapter, he becomes suicidal:

He came to a broom tree, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, LORD,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.”

Verse 4b

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